eons later

I can’t believe it’s been five years since I’ve done this. Relearning everything because I am a totally different person. Who was that child that wrote those few words? Scared to put fingers to keyboard and share my thoughts. I mean, she’s still in there but the desire to stay quiet isn’t louder than the desire to share anymore.

The world feels discombobulated and I’m trying to find my place in it again. It’s not the first time but each time is still hard and what worked before doesn’t work again. And when I reread my words, I’ll all I, I, I…. me, me, me…. I’m so tired of my thoughts and my worries and my trying to solve my problems. What if? I let it go.

Okay. I’m not going to commit to showing up. To be witty or relatable. To even keeping this here. But I will promise not to be someone that I’m not. My goal here is to share my art and creative process, non existent as it is. To share me with the universe, behind a screen.

5 second poetry

foot numb

windows fogged

heart hurts missing him

5 second poetry

bleary

tangled

so far

- by me (who needs coffee)

To new beginnings

I feel like a 12 year old girl starting her first diary. It took years to retrain my brain not to introduce myself to every new one. But you are not a diary who knows my mind and I did not include all the boring stuff on my story page. All the advice was to be fun and memorable and don’t worry about the facts of boring life. Get people to like you!

But I want you to know me. The good, the bad and sometimes very boring. So perhaps just a quick paragraph? I am mom to four, going through my second divorce. My kids range from 11-20 (I had to think about that) and it is such a different world when your kids are all out of toddlerhood. I changed diapers for 12 years straight (all late potty trainers). I am 39 years old. I have had many jobs but no careers. I work full time and this creative endeavor is my next step in sharing my art and projects and stories.

I am a fabulous procastinator, a plant killer, a cookbook reader, a beginner of many ideas (many of which don’t make it off the page), an avid reader, a home maker but not cleaner, an over user of parentheses, and I drink way too much coffee.

That seems like a good beginning. If you want to check out my instagram at @saltandstarofsam or sign up for my newsletter below. It’s brand new and I’m hoping to keep it very different from what I share here. But only time will tell. I might only have so many words and thoughts.